Excerpts from Iraq: Providing Hope
Copyright 2005 by Eric Holmes

“The fact that we were deploying didn’t hit me until the night before I reported to the company to get on the plane to fly out. Two weeks before leaving I felt like I was going a 1000 miles a minute. I lived in a townhouse in Clarksville, TN and I had to close everything out before I departed to include my cable and telephone services and make arrangements to close out my rent. I was glad that my parents were able to come down from Virginia and do all the final closeouts for me; otherwise I would have been in a world of hurt! Paying a year’s worth of rent on an empty townhouse, for example, was not something I was looking forward to doing.

“I think I woke up about 2:30 am the day I departed the United States heading for Kuwait. I reorganized and packed a few more items into my oversized bags and actually had to force some of the stuff in there. All the extra stuff that wouldn’t fit, I left in a laundry basket for my parents to take home to VA with them and to use it as a “please send me” basket. Periodically over the course of the deployment I’d ask them to send more underwear or more deodorant and they would take those items from the basket of goodies that I had already purchased and get them in the mail for me. I also left some last minute notes and directions for my parents to do the final closeout. It was a strange feeling leaving the place I had known as home for the past year or so. I felt very lonely and remember feeling sad even.

“That morning I locked up the house and drove off to my local storage unit where I left a few more of my personal belongings. On the way there I used my cell phone to make my final State-side calls for the next year. I called my sister Lauren who was at the time in her senior year at West Point. I called my sister Kirsten who was a plebe at West Point. I think I woke both of them up in there sleep. At least I know I woke Lauren up and perhaps I never got a hold of Kirsten to say goodbye, but asked Lauren to tell her for me. Finally, I called my parents and told them that I loved them too and said goodbye to my brother Dennis who was also at home. With that, I opened my storage unit, removed the battery from my cell phone and stored it away where I wouldn’t see it for the next 12 months.

-Allison Rowe

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“I was in the palace when the mortars were falling last week. I was literally simultaneously e-mailing back and forth to the US during the "attack." I was telling friends about it before it was reported.

“Unfortunately, CNN blew the whole thing way out of proportion. The mortars all landed in an empty parking lot. No one was hurt. No one was killed. No one was quivering with fear in a bomb shelter. Nor did anything burn as reported by CNN, although CNN showed stock footage of a burning Iraqi personnel carrier while reporting about the "barrage." It also wasn't a barrage. A barrage is usually dozens upon dozens of shells.

“Why do they have to make everything look even worse than it is?

-John Galt

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“There is no kind of job satisfaction then when a child hands you a bundle of flowers and thanks you freeing his country. Nothing I have done in my life outside of the Army can compare to having that kind of impact on someone’s life. Not politics and not business. So, I guess it is worth the sacrifice and pain.

-Fred Wellman


“All night long there were huge bursts of gunfire going into the air and tracers going every direction. It seems it happens every night as celebration shooting. We were not sure if it was good guys or bad guys that night because it was Saddam’s birthday. As it turns out it is hard to tell the difference between a good bullet and a bad bullet so we just put on our flak vests and hoped they were all poorly aimed bullets either way. We all sat outside on the ramp watching on the hoods of our vehicles. It looked like the Fourth of July in PTC. I was waiting for people to start “oohing” and “ahhing.”

-Fred Wellman


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“In the center of Saddam’s palace is a huge 200-foot-diameter rotunda, supporting the weight of the largest chandelier I have ever seen. At least thirty feet tall and over sixty feet in diameter, his chandelier must weigh in excess of a ton. Around the base of the rotunda are massive granite pillars supporting weight of the heavy roof. The palace is two levels, each about sixty feet floor to ceiling. The floor is inlaid dark wood (walnut, maybe?) and granite, and the off-shoots on the bottom floor are banquet rooms, dance floors, meeting rooms, a theater, and the master bedroom. The second floor few have seen, but are equally as large with numerous rooms above the rooms below. On the outside, large buttresses support the exterior walls and each has walkways connecting the entire second floor. Once you peer inside, though, you have to be impressed with the gold, most of all – toilets, gold; faucets, gold; doorknobs, gold; intricate molding in and around the doors, gold; emblems all over the house, gold; connecting structures of the chandeliers, gold; Arabic writing on the walls, gold; stairs, gold; chairs, gold; any other place any human being could potentially put gold, gold.

-Paul Colbert



See more photos from Saddam's palaces.







“When I got to bivouac site I had a strange feeling. This was almost the exact spot I bivouacked back in 1991. That time it was my furthest most advance. This time it was Day One – just the beginning.

-Chris Gehler





“The jump was an incredible experience for our paratroopers. Introducing a force like this has habitually been risky in the history of airborne operations and this mission was no different. As we leapt from the aircraft on that pitch black dark night we, no doubt, knew we were entering somewhat of an abyss -- just knowing once those feet left the platform that our lives would change for an extended period of time.

“The plan to attack Kirkuk was done in 15 minutes on the hood of a Hummvee. Basically it went like this, “Battle Company leads, Able breaks left, Chosen breaks left.” And that’s how we attacked.

-Dom Caraccilo





“On the 13th of December, my conversation with Mandi was cut a bit short. It began when unnamed people like Mr. Smith and Mr. Jones with social security numbers of 111-11-1111 and 222-22-2222 began showing up at my desk wanting a flight to Tikrit. We eventually planned to launch the Operational Reserve Chinooks (2 CH-47s on standby, releasable only by MG Miller himself, whose sole purpose in life was to pick up HVT #1 – Saddam Hussein). The crews of Hooker 45 and 51 from A/5-159 got alerted and I then began to put the pieces of the puzzle together. The final picture looked like an Ace of Spades.

-Paul Colbert







“Although I was not surprised, I was humbled by the fact that a man with no right hand drove standard better than I could. I had learned early on during my time in Iraq that its people are intelligent and resourceful. I saw the evening’s events as another step toward progress in Iraq, a blending of resources and talents to accomplish a common goal. But more importantly, I saw an Iraqi, overcoming the scars left by years of tyranny, taking the driver’s seat toward his own destiny.

-Anne Trenolene







“Sorry to vent in this way, but sometimes you just gotta let it go, and you're the one who happened to mash the pressure bleed valve....

“So, did we (800th MP Brigade and subordinate units) torture people on behalf of the nation or in pursuit of some grand intelligence plan? Absolutely not. Never. Wouldn’t do it for anybody. And you can’t make me.

"Detainees were abused at Abu Ghraib in the isolation wing on the night shift sometime in late October or early November. None of the parties involved reported it to their chain of command. As you can imagine there is a lot more to this story.

-Mike Sheridan





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“This is a 20 ton piece of medical equipment, which is used for the elimination of tumors in the brain. There are only 201 of these machines in the world. It has 201 focal points that radiate radiation onto a singular point. Now this radiation is produced by Cobalt 60 isotope. They call the isotope a “seed” which is no bigger than the point of a ball point pen. This seed is so “HOT” (radioactive) that if you took one “seed” and put it in a room as big as a gym and filled it with people they would all be dead within 15 minutes. This Cobalt 60 isotope has a half life of 5 years. Saddam purchased 15 years worth of “seeds” and he made his last payment two weeks before the war started. The coalition only found out about this machine a month ago when LTC Parish received a phone call from an Iraqi doctor now also was a Neurosurgeon. The day of the war he had the doors of the facilities welded shut. Makes you wonder just how many more welded doors are out there? This area has already been searched by this team I am going with. They found “Yellow Cake,” cesium and uranium.

“Now we have many fears about this facility and the “seeds.” First is going to be getting there safely. It is in the “Sunni Triangle” (Fallujah). Then there is the problem of not knowing which building it is in, within this huge Medical Complex. Then the even bigger problem is this place “Hot” (radioactive)? Then the even bigger problem: are the “seeds” still in the machine and the replacement stored safely? If they are not then God help us. This stuff would make one great Dirty Bomb, nuclear material wrapped around an explosive; this stuff could kill a lot of people. If it is not there then where?

-Rick Clay



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"Saddam kept bananas as a luxury and the general population wasn't allowed to have them. So after the liberation, they were everywhere! A fruit not grown in Iraq, it was also a strong symbol of commmerce flowing - green bananas were coming in and on every street corner!"

- Bonnie Carroll




“We learned more about faith, love, and service to G-d from a Muslim and Christian while we were in Iraq than we had for years serving in America. We learned that in the service of our Creat-r, a Jew, a Christian, and a Muslim, are all G-d’s creatures, capable of doing great things together, capable of changing the world, one bathroom at a time, one classroom at a time, one school at a time. When we left Iraq, we knew that we were privileged to do a ministry that very few are privileged to do. We knew that being an UMT, an army chaplain and a chaplain assistant, allowed us not to just minister to our soldiers, but together with our soldiers, minister to an oppressed people, a great and wonderful people, a people who had much to teach us about the ways of G-d.

-Rabbi Carlos Huerta



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“Approximately 10 minutes outside the gate, we encountered what appeared to be some sort of construction activity. The road was barricaded with barrels (55 gal drums perhaps). We saw apparent workers sweeping the road behind the barricade. Traffic was detoured to the right on some small side street that was very congested with traffic. There was a large automobile transport truck parked on the side of the road that further narrowed the street causing additional traffic congestion. This scene was very suspicious to us all as the first 2 vehicles of our convoy turned onto the detour street and were stopped by the congestion. Moments after stopping, automatic weapons fire rang out.

“It was a very surreal experience for me. I honestly wasn't sure what the noise was for a moment. All I knew was that it was very loud and it was to my left. It was so loud (with my window up) that I reacted with a sort of defensive flinch. I don't recall turning my head to look to my left. I believe this is because I had realized what the noise was an instant later while viewing the bullet ridden SUV in front of me.

-Jeff Qunell

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“The kids were harder to control. I had a lot of kids begin to start hanging around my vehicle; we were giving them Skittles and M&Ms from our MRE packets. They asked my name and I told them, “Michael.” They began chanting, “Michael Bush, Michael Bush, Michael Bush…” It was kind of funny and all the Marines got a kick out of it.

-Michael Hanes




“When the war started last year the Iraqi government went door to door to take sons and husbands to fight. Qusay’s mother lied and said that he was already south waiting to fight the Americans when he was really hiding downstairs. No wonder that their Army didn’t put up a fight, no one felt in their hearts the will to go and win. Qusay tells me now that he knew that the Americans were going to take Baghdad and apprehend Saddam. Qusay’s uncle, a Colonel in the Iraqi Army, fled Iraq five years ago and now lives in Germany. He was fearful that Saddam would kill him or his family at any given time. Saddam was able to stay in power by killing those around him who were a threat to him and his regime. One police station commander from Sadr City, LTC Sadoon, was imprisoned for 5 years during Saddam’s regime and feared for his life every day. The coalition forces gave him back his badge, a police station and police officers last October. His station is in one of the roughest areas in Sadr City and I wish him and his policemen well.

-Bob Ohl



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“At the reconnaissance site was a local family. Actually, there were 3 families that were living together. They were obviously poor, living in an abandoned Army bunker complex left over from the 1980s/90s. Between the three families, they had 14 children, most of which were not wearing shoes even when it was around 40-45 degrees. They kept clear of the soldiers for the first several days, but after a while, the children became more courageous, as well as one of the fathers. We (1st BN and a few of the advisors) gave them some of the food we had when they came out. We also gave the children some knitted caps, which Dave Baer had received in the mail from an Ellen Harpin (her group, The Ships Project, ellens12@yahoo.com, is voluntarily making and sending knitted stockings and caps to soldiers in Iraq from their spot in Florida). It was really heartwarming and heartbreaking all at the same time. It was also good to put things in perspective, again. Sometimes it's too easy to think about Iraqi citizens based solely on the explosions and RPG attacks we read/hear about in the news every day.

-Michael Sapp



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“The Poles are in the process of assuming control of our sector as the Marines go home. My unit is staying for now, but we are not sure what our ultimate fate will be. When the Poles see my nametag, they start talking to me in Polish, but my limited vocabulary allows me only to say hello.

“There was some initial concern about communication between the Poles and the Iraqis, but one visit to the Ministry of Water Resources in Baghdad proved otherwise. The Polish officer that was with us started talking to the American advisor in Polish (it turns out their mothers were from the same hometown in Poland), then he stalked talking with a Czech engineer and then with the Iraqi head of the Ministry who went to school in Poland. All the while, another American officer, also of Polish descent, and I sat dumbfounded not understanding anything that was said!

-Matt Gapinski


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